Ransom note?

I've finally realized how i feel about life right now. I feel like i am a hostage, on more than one account.

On the first account, I'm a hostage to myself. I'm subconsciously trying to turn myself into something that i'm not. In all honesty, I don't like florida, and i don't want to be here any longer. In fact, I would move to a farm in Iowa, if it meant i didn't have to live here anymore. I loved living in Brewster... as much as people hate on their hometowns, and whatever, I really loved it. It was small, but not tiny... and it was big if you included danbury into the mix, since it was pretty much all the same place. It is really a pretty place to live. I miss it so much.

I'm a hostage.
Agh, i hope ransom rates have dropped with the economy... idk if i can afford it.

Business or Pleasure?

As I sit here watching Pretty Woman, and painting my nails, i couldn't help but think about all the other girly shit i'm missing out on. My female co-workers all seem to love each other ever so dearly. They go out all the time, get wasted, dance, whatever... what i want to know is why I'm the one being left out? I feel like I kind of put myself out there trying to be friends with these girls, only to get kicked out of the club or something.

Maybe that's why i feel more comfortable around guys... less drama, and catty bullshit. Lately though, I've been really good at pushing people away. People who I really want to be friends with... I think i've forgotten how to be someone's friend.

Whatever it is that i've forgotten, I bet a glass of grape juice would help me start to remember... I am SO thirsy right now. Ugh.

Light on the Ice, buddy.

Work today was SOOOO SLOWWWW. It was retarded.
There was no one in the store until about 7pm, and then from then until closing time we were more busy than we had been all day. Friggin' tourists need to go home, and stay there. Idiots.

Something about coming home from a long days work and watching cartoons just really hits the spot. Like, it's the cherry on top... or the icing on the cake. I can go to bed satisfied now.

On a random note, I miss hanging out with Jimmy. We need to have some Jimmy-Lauren time pronto. Poker, wii bowling, and mcchickens. And mountain dew. Good combo. right there...

In either case it's time to go to bed... I have 5 miles that are calling my name in the morning.

Peace & Love.

Make like a tree, and get outta here!

So I just watched the premier of "Life in a Day" on youtube, live from sundance. I must say that was a very moving documentary... it's good to know there are some people out there who have the same thoughts and feelings as i do about being noticed. It's depressing thinking about it, but the truth is that I am just too normal to be important.

I kind of want to do my own spin-off of life in a day, and film a full day of my life. It might take a lot of memory, and uploading hours on youtube... but maybe then I'd have something solid to show people and say, "Here's me... this is my everyday."

Reading through my old blogs made me miss having fun stories to tell about outings with my friends... i feel like i was way more interesing when i was younger. Either that, or i'm trying to be someone who i'm not. I don't even know who i am really... anyone have an idea?

Auntie Em!

Tornado warning in effect... meh. Boring.

Work today wasn't too bad... I just had to unload freight from a small truck this morning, which made the hours fly by. Only bad thing was breaking my damn thumbnail off. :( I worked so hard to grow them out. Boo.

When Ryan came to pick me up today I texted him to come inside for the last 10 minutes of my shift, and in doing so he locked his keys in the car. Luckily AAA came to the rescue... *sings superman theme song*

I'm off tomorrow but I dont know what i'm going to do yet. Probably paint my nails, be a lazy bum, and fiddle on my new apple ibook that SHOULD be getting delivered tomorrow. When i say new, i mean new to me... but it's used and i only paid $139 for it. Wicked deal, eh?


...I realize i'm all over the place with this. I haven't blogged in a really long time, so it's going to take a bit to get back into the swing of things. Wait, why am I making excuses to myself? I'm only really writing this for me, and future me. The rest of you can sck it if you don't like it... pfft.



just kidding.
kthxbye!
<3

Ahh, rememberies...

So, i go through these phases where i'm all gun-ho about blogging, I start a blog for a week, and then desert it forever. I never used to be like that! I recently re-discovered my old blogs from high school, and read every single entry.
SO many memories, good and bad. (I was such a whiner.) I really enjoyed being able to travel back in time and re-live some good times with my best friends from high school, and I thought it'd be a good idea to continue the process.

I'm nearing the time in my life where soon I'll be living completely on my own, maybe starting a family in the next 5 years, who knows. I'd like to be able to fill in some of the void so that in another 7 years I can go back and read what i was up to at this point in time. ...Just think it'd be cool i guess.


That being said, I do believe it's time for some changes to take place.

On we go...